Lately.....

There have been times
When I have felt like a great sink hole would swallow me

Sometimes…there is nothing wrong
I am happy one moment

And just as suddenly
I have a great feeling of dread

That overtakes me...

As if someone was using a voodoo doll
In a place far away
Poking my heart with a rusty needle

Perhaps…it is the stress of my work
The isolation I sometimes feel there
Not having time to relax
The pain from the back that just won’t heal
Not having enough hugs and loving touches
Worrying about bills
Worrying about the violence that threatens me
Worrying about the demands of my job

And perhaps it just overtakes me
Like a shell shocked soldier
On the Fourth of July…

Or perhaps...
I am just not adjusting to the meds