Hello......anyone out there?

Being Bipolar really f**king blows....
Bipolar II, all the shit without the mania
I should have seen the signs
Problems with sleep
Watching two full hours of "COPS"

Spacing out
Isolating
Aleinated
Thinking of all the times I have done stupid things
Thinking of how much stupid shit I said in class
And that I should just shut up
Feeling like everyone hates me

My legs shaking
The feelings of wanting......
nevermind
The images my brain paints are ugly sometimes
Why does it coax me their?

Should I call?
Should I go?

Just need to learn to deal with it
Cannot concentrate

Just want to not feel this anymore
To not feel anything
Is worse than......

This my quiet scream